Hearing/reading/saying the words at this stage makes me want to vomit. I have been battling with this since I can remember… the only time I think I didn’t feel fat/overweight was when I was in high-school and that is a story for another time.
I have been trying to be more positive about my current body. I say current because it is still very hard to accept I no longer fall under the ‘skinny’ flag.
Let me start by showing what I used to look like: This was me in 2008 – I think. I thought I was fat here.
This was me early 2000’s… I thought I was fat here. (I am the one in the pink shirt)
In all of these I truly believed I am fat.
And here I am now… this time… I really am fat. I feel like a beached whale. I avoid mirrors and shop windows like the plague and shopping for clothes have become so traumatic I have been squeezing into old clothing which, in turn, makes me feel even bigger.
It’s been an uphill and rollercoaster ride since 2016, when my thyroid started acting up and ever since then the only way I seem to be able to lose any weight, is if I gym like a madman and only eat once a day. But I cannot live my life like that. They cannot really find a medical reason why I am still not able to lose any weight as I do not eat loads of junkfood and even if I drink considerably less, I do not seem to lose any weight.
I am realising that I need to start accepting that, for now at least, this is my size, and I need to choose clothes that will compliment and accentuate my good bits. This brings me to why I am writing this blog. (I read somewhere that people who blog are closeted serial-killers, it made me chuckle because I love blogging and I love True Crime even more). Anyway I digress… So I had this epiphany that right now, I am at the ‘if you can’t beat them, join them’ stage. I came across this American woman who goes by Taryn Truly. (And because I believe in supporting each other, this is her FB handle: https://www.facebook.com/TarynTruly) She has inspired me and she is absolutely gorgeous… She is also, what she calls mid-size, and My Word so stylish and classy and I wish I could copy her look every time I watch one of her videos, but we do not have Amazon clothes or Walmart here in South Africa, hence Annettestrendytrail was born. I decided to start my own little Facebook and Instagram, probably TikTok videos to share what I find, or even better, what I have available in my own shop – you read that correct, I also sell plus size clothing, in order for us to get that stylish look that makes you feel like a million dollars even though you don’t necessarily like your curves all that much.
So instead of boring you to death with my serial killer blogging, why not follow me at the following handles: https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=61552531953036&mibextid=LQQJ4d
Love and light
Annette
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